Dog Days & Baby Beys

First off, I would like to thank everyone who has reached out today with your well-wishes about my exciting news. I am beyond blessed 😇


Oh wait, did you think I was talking about my career-change?

No, I’m talking about MY GIRL (and guy) Bey and Jay getting pregnant with TWINS!!!!! This news is what I needed today. As I sit home pondering my life, I see an incoming call from one of my girlfriends who I knowwww is at work. I got worried for a second but was relieved when I picked up the phone and heard “have you seen Beyoncé’s instagram announcement?!” And five seconds later we were screaming about a pregnancy announcement of two babies we’ll tragically never meet. But that’s here nor there. What’s important is that the Carter’s are back to being the King & Queen, we all got ‘Lemonade’ out of Jay’s infedelities and we’re getting two more little Bey’s on the way!

In other news, a few seconds after my screaming began, another form of screaming began and it was that of the dog I’m babysitting for today. That’s right, I’m dog sitting to make some cash 💰. The day started off at 815 when the owner dropped a 50 pound something-Shepard dog off at the house. Phoebe promptly went from snoring to soaring through the air trying to rile up her new housemate. And rile up she did. Running, playing keep away, barking, wrestling, growling.. they did it all. We’ve gone on four walks, played at a dog park, and done laps around my house. It’s 425 now and I’ve got about an hour left to go on of my first day as a dog sitter. I’ve picked up plenty of poop, I’ve ripped a dog I met one hour before off another pup whom he was aggressively humping, almost had my eardrums blown out due to high pitched barking and I have learned that Phoebe prefers life as an only child and I prefer making more than $35 for 9 hours of work. But HEY! You never know until you try !!!

Life lesson and wisdom of the day: Give your dog walker (or kid watcher) some credit and an extra tip- watching other people’s children is tough work.

Here are some pics to document the adventurous day.


Until next time.

Lots of love & light,

Jessy

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Lemons Into Lemonade

Lemons into LemonadeEveryone knows I love me some Bey. I tend to get a little crazy with it and I know this but the reality is, her music got me through some really tough patches and so I feel connected to her, as crazy diva as she may be. 
Her new album Lemonade came about about a month ago and I was lucky enough to hear it all live at her concert in Foxborough last Friday night. 
The more I listen the more I relate. No, I’ve never been in a romantic relationship that someone’s hurt me so badly- I’ve never dealt with infidelity but I know what it feels to be cheated on. 
When I was first diagnosed with leukemia, I felt like my body cheated on me. It let me down, it betrayed me. I had loved it and taken good care of it for 24 years and that’s how it repaid me? Her album talks about all the emotions that she felt during her struggle with her husband- how she felt angry, sad, overwhelmed, then went through grieving and forgiveness and the important process of feeling free again. 

My favorite verse from the album goes like this…

“They say true love’s the greatest weapon

To end the war caused by pain

But every diamond has imperfections 

But my love’s too pure to watch it chip away

Boy nothing real can be threatened

True love breathes salvation back into me

With every tear came redemption

And my torturer became my remedy”

And that couldn’t be more true. To me, it’s saying- SHITTTT that was hard. But you know what? I’m strong and the love that I have for myself (or in her case, him) is much stronger than any pain I could ever feel. It was my body that “tortured” me but it is me treating it with love and respect and understanding that has been my remedy. I honor it. 

I think the story of infidelity and betrayal is one that any human can relate to. We’ve all experienced it on some level or another. Betrayal, whether it be with a lover, family member, friend, workplace, or in my case, my body can be infuriating and beyond upsetting. Betrayed, in any form, hurts the soul. But if you can come to terms with it and choose to move past the negativity, it can make you a stronger person because of it. 

Now this is not my way of getting you to go listen to Lemonade but instead I hope that it’s just a good reminder of an important lesson in life… When you’re served lemons, always always make Lemonade. 🍋🍋🍋

Lots of love, light and SLAY BEY SLAY BEY,

Jessy


p.s. If you are looking for a pump-me-up song, you NEED ‘Freedom’ in your life. I literally March as if I’m in a step crew every time I hear it. 💃🏻💃🏻 sue me. 🙌🏼

P.p.s the video is her ending the show with Halo- the song that I sung to myself over and over and over during hard procedures or times during the past two years. Seeing her sing it live, with fireworks going off in the background was a moment that felt very surreal and one that I’ll never gorget. Very grateful. 

I’m Free

Today, I cried some tears of joy but mostly, I smiled. I smiled because today I got my last infusion of chemotherapy. I smiled because I was told that after looking at over 1 million of my cells, ALL of them had been cleared of leukemia. I smiled because my nurse Andrea had a “Nuked the Leuk” shirt made for me. I smiled because there were 15 nurses and doctors waiting behind a curtain as I arrived to surprise me and give me hugs. I smiled because I was with Mike, my mom and my dad- the three people who were with me the night I was diagnosed and have been there for me every step of the way since. I smiled because I walked out of the doors of Dana-Farber and knew that it was my last time there as a patient. I smiled because I got given the greatest gift I could ever receive– a restored, renewed and beautiful life.

I smiled because my baby brother put together this video montage using pictures and videos that I’ve taken over the past two years. I had planned to post a bunch of pictures from today but I’ll do that later– right now this video has made me smile on the outside and on the inside.

Today, after 769 days, I crossed the finish line. Today, I was reminded of every single person that helped me get to this point- every friend, every family member, every nurse and doctor, every person who sent me a card or commented on my blog with well wishes- I thought of everyone. Today, I feel more blessed, more grateful, more humbled then I ever have in my life. Today I feel free… and I feel that because it’s true. I am free.

All my love & light,

Jessy

Forever Young: Yogi Style

After a night of severe wallowing and feeling bad for myself and a rant on this blog post like no other, I thought this morning it would be healthy to start the day fresh and remind myself of all the things I have to be grateful for, like being strong enough to be able to work out and destress with some yoga. So that’s what I did. To some Beyonce and JayZ, of course. No better way to blow off some steam and feel empowered.
 
“Leave a mark that can’t erase neither space nor time
So when the director yells cut, I’ll be fine, I’m forever young”
 
Lots of love to you all.
 
XOXO,

Jessy

Crazy for the Carter Family

I haven’t written in for what feels like forever. Mostly because I really have had no updates…nothing that I felt was worthy enough to write about. Each day has been generally the same. I’m home, I’m tired, I’m sometimes nauseous and I’m still dealing with a headache that has been here for literally over a month. On a “good” day, I have a visitor or have the energy to make dinner, maybe do some laundry, go for a walk or yoga. Nothing exactly over-the-top exciting. Well, except for my new-found talent of knitting– teaching myself this craft has actually been super exciting! So it sounds negative but I’ve felt like, what do I really have to say? And honestly today didn’t start much different than the rest but today took a turn for the fabulous and I now have something to say…something really really exciting to announce and it has absolutely nothing to do with cancer. TODAY MIKE AND I SCORED TICKETS TO THE “ON THE RUN” JAYZ AND BEYONCE SUMMER TOUR!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO WOOOOOOOOO!

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It sounds so silly but this is the most excited I have been over something in a few months. I love Beyonce. I love JayZ. I love Blue Ivy. Plain and simple, I love the Carters. They are the best and I’ve been chirping about how the two of them need to go on tour together for quite some time and FINALLY my dream has come a reality. And this is just what I needed– I needed something to put on my calendar besides my next hospital stay. It’s something fun, it’s something exciting and something I really am going to get to look forward to!

So a big thank you to my wonderful boyfriend for coming through and getting me the best form of medicine I could ever ask for! I might not be Drunk in Love lately but I’m certainly still Crazy in Love (see how I did that!? hehe)  

All hail the Queen Bey,

Jessy   

p.s. I need to learn this move before June 30th. 

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Jessy’s Most Wanted: Jobs

After watching a few Diners, Drive-ins and Dives, I’ve decided I’d like a fantastic job like Guy Fieri has. So here are my top five dream gigs.

1. Guy Fieri hosting “Triple D”: thought I’d start with the top since its my number one dream job! If you don’t watch this show, START, it’s amazing. Basically what it is, is a chef (Guy) who travels all around the US going to small restaurants that are well known in the area. Each time the featured restaurant has a some sort of specialty item that he tries and every time, my belly grumbles and my mouth starts salivating. With that said, Guy Fieri gets paid to travel the country and eat the best food–now that’s one hell of a job.
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2. Ellen Degeneres: she makes cagillions dancing around with celebrities, playing games, hanging out with Rosie and Sophia, and basically makes a lot of people’s dreams come true (let’s face it, that’s got to be the absolute best).
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3. Beer tester: found out about this bad ass job during a Budweiser brewery tour and my life’s never been the same. Drink beer + get paid = amazingness.
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4. Carson Daily hosting the Voice. This is the awesome because he gets all the perks of being on the show without having to be a judge and pick and choose people. Instead of crushing people’s dreams, Carson stands there and roots the contestants on and tells them how great they did.
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5. Beyonce. Enough said.
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What’s your dream job??

xoxo,
Jessy