I’m Free

Today, I cried some tears of joy but mostly, I smiled. I smiled because today I got my last infusion of chemotherapy. I smiled because I was told that after looking at over 1 million of my cells, ALL of them had been cleared of leukemia. I smiled because my nurse Andrea had a “Nuked the Leuk” shirt made for me. I smiled because there were 15 nurses and doctors waiting behind a curtain as I arrived to surprise me and give me hugs. I smiled because I was with Mike, my mom and my dad- the three people who were with me the night I was diagnosed and have been there for me every step of the way since. I smiled because I walked out of the doors of Dana-Farber and knew that it was my last time there as a patient. I smiled because I got given the greatest gift I could ever receive– a restored, renewed and beautiful life.

I smiled because my baby brother put together this video montage using pictures and videos that I’ve taken over the past two years. I had planned to post a bunch of pictures from today but I’ll do that later– right now this video has made me smile on the outside and on the inside.

Today, after 769 days, I crossed the finish line. Today, I was reminded of every single person that helped me get to this point- every friend, every family member, every nurse and doctor, every person who sent me a card or commented on my blog with well wishes- I thought of everyone. Today, I feel more blessed, more grateful, more humbled then I ever have in my life. Today I feel free… and I feel that because it’s true. I am free.

All my love & light,



16 thoughts on “I’m Free

  1. I don’t know you Jessy but you are truly AMAZING. ❤ ❤ You are such an inspiration of strength and love and never giving up. I am so happy for you and your family!!!!

  2. All I can say…is Wahoo……would have expected nothing else…JJ said it all in the video…you are loved, dear Jessica by so many…Prayers for gratefulness today….Love, Connie

  3. We went to school together but never talked. I want to tell you (from me being a fellow survivor, of stage 4 High risk Neuroblastoma) congratulations!!!! This made me cry. I know the road was tough, no one will ever know the struggle worries and pain unless they go through it. I am so proud of you, sending hugs your way!

    • Jamie, thank you for reaching out to me. And you’re right, no one will ever fully understand unless you’ve gone thru it. I hope you are doing well, sending you lots of love!

  4. Jessica – I stumbled upon this today and felt so inspired to read your words and watch your story. I am a nurse at the Brigham and the nurse director of 7d and have been privileged to meet you a couple of times. You had a tremendous impact on everyone on our unit, you are an amazing soul and I wish you much joy and happiness on this next step on your journey. Thank you for the cards you share that continue to help patients in their fight you are truly an inspiration!

    • Hi Katie, thank you so much for the kind words and for everything you do! I couldn’t have gotten thru everything if it weren’t for the love, warmth, support and friendship I felt on 7D. Truly, I am so grateful to all of you. I’ll continue to get those cards to you guys! 🙂 xoxo

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