Lemons into LemonadeEveryone knows I love me some Bey. I tend to get a little crazy with it and I know this but the reality is, her music got me through some really tough patches and so I feel connected to her, as crazy diva as she may be.
Her new album Lemonade came about about a month ago and I was lucky enough to hear it all live at her concert in Foxborough last Friday night.
The more I listen the more I relate. No, I’ve never been in a romantic relationship that someone’s hurt me so badly- I’ve never dealt with infidelity but I know what it feels to be cheated on.
When I was first diagnosed with leukemia, I felt like my body cheated on me. It let me down, it betrayed me. I had loved it and taken good care of it for 24 years and that’s how it repaid me? Her album talks about all the emotions that she felt during her struggle with her husband- how she felt angry, sad, overwhelmed, then went through grieving and forgiveness and the important process of feeling free again.
My favorite verse from the album goes like this…
“They say true love’s the greatest weapon
To end the war caused by pain
But every diamond has imperfections
But my love’s too pure to watch it chip away
Boy nothing real can be threatened
True love breathes salvation back into me
With every tear came redemption
And my torturer became my remedy”
And that couldn’t be more true. To me, it’s saying- SHITTTT that was hard. But you know what? I’m strong and the love that I have for myself (or in her case, him) is much stronger than any pain I could ever feel. It was my body that “tortured” me but it is me treating it with love and respect and understanding that has been my remedy. I honor it.
I think the story of infidelity and betrayal is one that any human can relate to. We’ve all experienced it on some level or another. Betrayal, whether it be with a lover, family member, friend, workplace, or in my case, my body can be infuriating and beyond upsetting. Betrayed, in any form, hurts the soul. But if you can come to terms with it and choose to move past the negativity, it can make you a stronger person because of it.
Now this is not my way of getting you to go listen to Lemonade but instead I hope that it’s just a good reminder of an important lesson in life… When you’re served lemons, always always make Lemonade. 🍋🍋🍋
Lots of love, light and SLAY BEY SLAY BEY,
p.s. If you are looking for a pump-me-up song, you NEED ‘Freedom’ in your life. I literally March as if I’m in a step crew every time I hear it. 💃🏻💃🏻 sue me. 🙌🏼
P.p.s the video is her ending the show with Halo- the song that I sung to myself over and over and over during hard procedures or times during the past two years. Seeing her sing it live, with fireworks going off in the background was a moment that felt very surreal and one that I’ll never gorget. Very grateful.
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Jessy, This really hit home with me, tonight, as I truly have never been able to get over that my biological Mother abandoned me at age 4. Perhaps, it made me a stronger person, but, the past year, has really taught me how precious life is. Today, I was with 20 plus friends at the Yacht Club, having a very fun lunch, laughing, talking politics, and my my new do that everyone loved. Then, I came home to Mickey and that was like frosting on the cake of my day, plus, all day, I thought of how many times 30 years ago today, I tried to get into Hunt Hospital to be with Kathy, and they would not let me even see her. Life is as GREAT, as we make it. Love, Your Gram
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Oh Gram, I love you. I’m happy that this post resonated with you. I hate that about your biological mother but just think, then Nana came into yours and then all of our lives and were so blessed. So happy to hear you had a great day with your friends, you deserve it. Give Mickey a kiss from his sister!