A Moment In Time Reminds

I’ve been looking through a lot of old pictures and videos today. I have tons of these videos, me by myself, talking about the day. This one struck me because I watch this and know how hard it was. I am so excited to #nuketheleuk but I think processing what a difficult journey this has been for me, helps me heal.

I’ve come a long way since this day, buzzed head sitting alone, looking out the window but these raw moments were the reality of my days. Not each one cheery or inspiring. 

On a brighter note, i got my second to last treatment today. Friday is the bone marrow biopsy and one week from tonight I will be a cancer treatment graduate. 

All my love & light, 

Jessy

Steroids Have Me Like WOAH

It seems only fitting that my last round of steroids, after literally too many rounds to count, would hit me SO hard. I literally had six emails from myself this morning when I got to work, all which I had sent from about 1130-1am last night as I could not get my mind to shut off. And today, I just couldn’t stop. Couldn’t stop talking. Couldn’t stop thinking. Couldn’t stop step marching on my way home. Just couldn’t stop. I wish leukemia had a visual bunching bag so I could just destroy it right now. I am so amped up it’s incredible. These steroids are so powerful though it’s just crazy to think about — I go from such extremes highs to such lows when I come off of them. They mentally and physically affect me beyond what I can explain. They have pretty much been the bane of my existence for the past 2 years so I am SOOOOO EFFING EXCITED FOR IT TO BE DONE. LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Three days from now I’ll take my last dose of steriods, hopefully, EVER!!!! Anyways, to be able to remind myself of the CRAZY that comes with the high days– I recorderded this video that I thought I’d share. I look crazy but that’s how I feel right now. I hope it makes you laugh. #NEUKTHELUKE BETCHES!

 Happy Friday everyone– enjoy all the bliss of your weekends!

Lots of love & light,

Jessy

Cracklin Yoga

It’s been a stressful few weeks. I’ve been working so much I feel like I’ve been missing out on me time and in particular exercising and yoga time. Literally, it feels like my arms are in chains attached to my computer. So tonight, even though it was only for 15 minutes I took some much-needed time and did some at-home, silly yoga. Sometimes it’s good not to take it so seriously and not practice so rigidly but simply do what feels good in the moment, for you! So I wiggled around and stretched a lot and took deep breaths to calm my mind and of course, danced around to some good music to make myself laugh and loosen up the muscles.

It’s good to be a yogi & I’m so grateful to have found this practice.

Cheers to loosening up and making yourself giggle!
Lots of love & light, 

Jessy

Best Friday Ever

Every working human being knows the exciting feeling of FRIDAY. Today, I feel that tenfold. Today is my “first” Friday being back and I couldn’t be happier about it. It’s been a busy but important week in terms of getting my life back. Work has felt a bit overwhelming but I’m taking it one step at a time and already starting to feel back into the swing of things. So this morning as I was sitting in awesome traffic, I couldn’t help but dance around when that new Bruno Mars song came on. (It’s just TOO good).

On an even better note, I got my results from the biopsy and spinal tap I had done the previous week. I am….. Drum roll please………….Leukemia free!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn’t be more relieved or blessed to still be in remission. So the march keeps on and we continue to kick some lousy cancer ass!

Well peeps, it’s time to start the day. I hope you have a FABULOUS Friday and remember to dance when you can! 🙂

XOXO,
Jessy

Embrace Today

Tomorrow is a big day. Tomorrow I’ll finally get the bone marrow biopsy to find out if the leukemia has come back. But it’s Tuesday, not Wednesday. It’s not tomorrow. It’s today.

And today I’m enjoying my life. Doing yoga and dancing half way through. Dancing so much my head-wrap comes off, but it’s okay cuz I’m bald and beautiful, betches. Listening to music and singling along. Sipping slowly on ice coffee and putting my feet up. Making this video just to learn something new and have fun.

Today is a good day.

XOXO,
Jessy

The Little Things Matter

Wanted to share this video as a friend shared it with me a few days ago and I thought it was beautiful. It’s a great example of how you don’t have to do grandiose gestures to make a difference. It’s the little things that you do in your life that make a difference.

Plus, this is the Inspiration Initiative after all isn’t it? So get inspired. Do something nice for someone else today!

Xoxo,
Jess

Motivational Monday: At Least You’re Not this Girl


Monday's almost over. (THANK GOD) but I know we're all still upset that another weekend has since bit the dust and we're left with a full week ahead of us with work to get done, diets to adhere to, gym sessions to muddle through and errands to check off the list. But all I have to say is… thank you Lord I am not this girl. And you should all feel thankful too.

This video came out Friday (and completely made my day) and it's internet ratings have still yet to come crashing down. This poor poor girl is currently the laughing stock of America's pop culture. And that, that's a place I would nottttt want to visit.

xoxox,
Jessy

p.s. when you're twerking by yourself, with candles on….and video taping it– you really can't complain when something like this happens. Just gotta think, "I deserved that."

Motivational Monday: 8/26/13

Today is a special day. It’s the morning after the 2013 VMA awards, aka the night Nsync had a reunion and Justin Timberlake solidified himself as one of the best artists of our time. No big deal or anything, but I’ve basically been his number one fan since 1998, and there’s no better feeling than watching your favorite artist absolutely CRUSH everyone else and all other live performances… of all time. Not to mention, seeing Nsync reunite after 8 years instantly brought me back to being 11 years old and screaming at the top of my lungs at one of their many concerts I attended. Doesn’t get much better than that.

This video may not be a ‘motivational’ speech but if it doesn’t motivate you to be the best at your craft or be the best at whatever you do or whatever you want to be then I just don’t know what will.

Enjoy peeps. I’ll be watching this on repeat. ALL WEEK.

XOXO,
Jessy

p.s. this performance also proved (after a nauseating performance by Miley Cyrus) that putting on a phenominal show doesn’t mean being outrageous and over-the-top…it means that being unbelievabley talented is what entertains above all else. #GoJustin #GoHomeMiley

Motivational Monday

Monday’s are the pits. Every Monday, I feel a lot of not-so-great emotions. Such as:
– I’m tired
– I’m cranky
– I’m depressed the weekend is over
– I’m stressed about all the work I need to get done during the week
– I feel fat after eating and drinking all weekend
– I feel pissed that I’m going to be inside and behind a computer for the next 5 days.

But as much as I hate Mondays, I always have to get through them. And so do you. So I’ve decided I’m going to post inspirational videos to make them not so bad (or at least just a teensy bit better).

This one will take you by surprise FOR SURE. Who knew Ashton Kutcher was not only smart but also really convincing (and clearly so handsome). Anyways, I hope this video makes you feel empowered and enlightened. It may be Monday but you can still go kick some work world ass.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNXwKGZHmDc

xoxo,
Jessy